It Was One Of Those Days....

.....but who is surprised?

I have the area music loop from the now-dead Wonders Of Life pavilion playing now. That 63 minutes of musical genius always makes me so nostalgic. Epcot did a horrid thing by closing it. But not getting into that now...

My head is pounding. Throbbing. Raging. Searing. Pulsating. Aching. Any synonym for hurting you can think of. I cried a good bit again today. As always. I need to invest in waterproof mascara..... My eyes are burning too. Even my teeth hurt. But this isn't anything new- I hurt like this in my head every day.

It's so funny how pain manifests itself. My head, neck, eyes, arms, every inch of me aches all over. I'm not sick. The H1N1 swine flu hasn't overtaken me. It's just depression. Loneliness. The never-ending feeling of despair.

I miss him. More than anyone can imagine. More than anyone can conceive to know.

No need to tell who I miss.... those who know me know.

18 days and I'll have the application submitted. Then maybe this nightmare will be over.

I can only pray it will.

Much love.