So Here is My...

.....year in review since this is the last day of 2009.

Sorry for lack of bloggage this month. Laptop has been broken.

Anyways....

This year was definitely nuts. I mean, it was amazing and wonderful and thrilling but it was also hurtful and depressing and painful. Odd combo, I know, but true.

Most of my year was spent at Disney, the happiest place on earth. I had the time of my life at Disney, obviously. Let's do some chronological review-

Jan. 21- Got to Disney. Met my soon-to-be-ex roomie Anna. Moved into Chatham.

Jan. 23- Traditions. Went to Magic Kingdom.

Jan. 27- orientation at Saratoga Springs. Met the awesome Laura Manning.

Jan. 28- morning training courtesy of Bea at Artist's Palette. Ohhhh..... gahhhh....

Jan. 29- night training courtesy of Mark at Artist's Palette. Better than mornings...

Ok, here comes THE DAY... January 30. I met the amazing and wonderful Brandon Fegenbush. I can still remember that moment, duh...

February was kinda blurry for the first couple weeks- Anna and Taylor (good riddance to her) and Stephanie left (alcohol.... idiots). Third week of February though, I got my BoM from Brandon. That's when he and I became such good friends. Also met Shaun and Jordan (his housemates) and Elder Russell and Elder Miskell (the missionaries).

March 1- had Basics. Boring. Only saving grace was Brandon being there too. Met Ani Urbanski. Went to breaking the fast that night. Met Emmilie Buchanan (!!!!). Met Elicia Merwin. Met Mila Romo. Met Jennlyn Bishop. Met a host of other peeps too.

March 13 and 22- you fill in the blanks. Best days ever!

Of course, in this timeframe we all frequented the parks and water parks, worked together, and basically just had fun.

April 15- we aren't gonna go there. No no no no no no......

The rest of the program kinda was subpar. I had Katie Satterfield and Ani till June 6. Katie Bantz came to SSR and became my other half. All the fall peeps came in JUne- Steve, Jessica, Bri Bri, Hannah.... you know, them. Winkie. Went to Turf Club in May and rarely worked Artist's Palette afterward. Quite the relief. No Brandon equaled rather depressing work environment.

HALLELUJAH Emmilie stayed till the end. She helped me survive!!

Left August 7.

Came home, back to JCJC... blahhhh. Work at South Central Regional Medical Center. Love it.

And so there you go. My year in review. Kinda choppy but mehhh, it works.

Bring it on, 2010!!!

I Actually Forgot....

....what it feels like to be really really happy. Well, at the moment, I am really really happy.

No, I didn't get a letter from BYUI or anything like that today. So don't think that. It's more trivial but still meant a lot to me. I mentioned yesterday how badly I wanted Donny Osmond to win Dancing with the Stars this season. He's a celebrity I have adored my whole life (no thanks to my mother, but still), plus he's LDS, come on.

He won this season!!

I started crying. Seriously. I was that happy. I don't recall the last time I cried because I was happy. Oh yeah, I remember- the night I was baptized. Eight long months ago.

I told my mom those new email accounts and 100 votes would pay off. I even prayed, seriously. I felt like I should.

And now that I have shrieked myself hoarse and still have a few tears in my eyes, I am concluding this. I leave you with....



Much love.

Hot Chocolate+PB=....

.... lots and lots of love. :))

Haha, I remember that day. That poor guest probably thought we were nuts by trying to turn her cup of cocoa into a literal melted Reese's but she ended up liking it. We as in the dynamic little duo of SSR... uh-huh, those two crazy Mormons. But he and I were just cool like that. :D

I mailed the paperwork to Bishop Mills today. It better arrive by 3pm tomorrow like that nice lady at the Ellisville post office said or I am going to demand my $17.50 back. No joke.

On a final note, if Donny Osmond does not win Dancing With The Stars tomorrow, I am going to go insane because I voted for him and Kym at least 100 times. Amen. More power to the Mormons, come on!

I need to finish this cup of love and go to sleep. Work tomorrow.

Much love.

Well At Least...

....that weight is off my shoulders.

The endorsement. I asked Jennlyn how to get in touch with Bishop Mills, called him, and he agreed to endorse me. So I will know if I am accepted by the time I get out of JCJC for Christmas, hopefully. That's a big huge HALLELUJAH!!!

I'm moving out of the dorms at JCJC regardless. I hate them. They suck. It is crazy to have your A/C flood the room daily, not be allowed to turn on the heat because the rooms might mold due to said leaky A/C, have to wait 3 weeks to get the vanity light fixed, wait 3 weeks to get the shower drain unclogged.... on and on and on. That college needs help. Typical of Mississippi though. Ugh.... my gag reflex is kicking in on the mere mention of Mississippi.

The only things worth being liked in this miserable state are Jackson, the coast, and... that's it. I love Jackson. Love it. Best city in the state. Actually is civilized, unlike the sticks where I am. Anna said they have a giant LDS church in Jackson. Who knew? Not me... I have to drive an hour to get to the one in Meridian, or Laurel, or Hattiesburg. Grrr... AND we don't have a temple. That is what is really annoying.

Well, Rebecca can't room with me but I found another girl who wants to. Sarah, from Michigan, goes to Schoolcraft where Hannah goes. How coicidental is that? I like her. I think we'll get along great.

I'm out before the internet decides to flip out on me again.

Miss you, as always.

Much love.

Oops, I...

...failed to mention that it has been seven months today since I have seen the amazing and wonderful Brandon Fegenbush. Enough said.

And I have been LDS for eight months. That is a much, much, much happier thing to be mentioning.

Much love.

So All in All....

....not been the best few weeks, days, whatever. But that should come as no surprise.

Seriously, I've been getting raging headaches for eons now. And since I am on a total homeopathic kick and refuse OTC drugs unless I feel like I am having an aneurysm and need to knock out the pain, I deal with them. It's annoying. It's called STRESS.

I need that ecclesiastical endorsement!!! This is getting ridiculous. DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY CLUE HOW I CAN SOLVE THAT ISSUE????? Thank you.

I really miss Disney.. enough said.

And I miss you too, oh so very much. Amen.

Much love.

Back Again And....

....yeah. Hmmm.

I get to go to a YSA Ward again. Turns out there's one in Hattiesburg. Woohoo!! Who knew? Not me, obviously...

I have found a potential CP roomie. On the Dis again. Her name is Rebecca and she lives in Oklahoma. She finds us compatible in the roomie department. Yay! Let's just hope she doesn't turn out like Anna. Anna had such potential... shame that sleazy Taylor had to turn her into someone I don't like anymore.

I hope that TS Ida floods the humanities building and we don't have classes for a week. Seriously. No joke.

My toe is better. Sore, but better.

I miss you, Brandon and Emmilie. Just reiterating that fact once again.

Much love.

So Guess What...

...happened to me today? No, it isn't good, either.

I was leaving to go to the cafeteria to eat lunch. Well, the oh-so-smart dorm peeps put in new doors that are uber heavy with a nice gap at the bottom. My foot got in the way of that heavy bottom-gap door, and now the big toe on my right foot is missing its nail.

I know, painful!!! Ugh!!!!! It is still throbbing like you can't imagine. I have it all bandaged up but still... ughhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blahhhh.... stomach virus yesterday, now this?? Not cool!!

Plus, I saw someone get rear-ended on the way home from work and I also saw the cops arresting people at a restaurant. Wow. Did anyone have a good day? I didn't.

Much love.

As Of Today...

BYUI has the HS transcripts and ACT scores. Excellent. Now the final hurdle is the endorsement. None of the churches I have called will answer the phone. Grrr. I'm going to call out to Provo tomorrow and see if maybe I can do a phone endorsement. Worth a try...

I can't believe it's November. Wow. I leave this place next month. 64 more days... wow. I need to ask Brandon if he did reapply. I'm dying to know.

I need to go to bed. I guess I will.

Till we meet again....

Much love.

So Yes It Is...

...Halloween today. Excellent. Not much going on. There's candy in the house and I can't quit eating it. Not a good thing, but oh well...

I can't believe it snowed in Rexburg yesterday. Yet here it was ninety degrees two days ago. Rained yesterday and is now freezing. I wish it would snow. I'll take arctic temps any day over the sauna we have here.

I need to finish that speech. Oh, well, I have till Thursday to do so. No big deal.

66 more days... that's hardly any time left.

Off for now.

Much love.

Just Wanted To....

....wish everyone a Happy Halloween!!! Or All Hallow's Eve. Day of the Dead. You get the picture.

November is starting Sunday. Sheesh. Plus I get an extra hour of sleep tomorrow. Joy joy!!!

If you're gonna Facebook me, chat back with me when I reply, Brandon. Thank you.

Off to finish listening to Tapestry of Nations and count the days... 66 left!! Oh and Meagan is coming too. So I have a classmate joining me. Woooohoooo!!!

Good night, moon.

Much love.

I Just Had To....

....change my template. I was tired of the Great Pumpkin.

That's all.

Much love.

I Am....

....back again. Yes, again.

Helped Niki fill out the app. Woohoo!! My first time recruiting, though it was 11pm in the dorm lobby. Still works. Still counts. Still awesome!!!

Anyways...

I was going through all my pictures from the CP and I got so nostalgic and a tiny bit weepy. Seeing me and Brandon and Sarah and Aaron and Em and Katie and Jordan and Shaun and Elicia and Amy and on and on all together made me slightly sad. For example, I came across our Rock 'N Roller Coaster pics from the day we (as in me, Brandon, Sarah, Jordan, and Aaron) hit up DHS. The night of the turkey leg and Fantasmic and me freaking on Tower of Terror and the Tower of Terror DVD and so on.... but, back on track- I found our coaster pics and was looking at them. Examples are as follows-





But my favorite is this one, appropriately captioned as "One of our Rock 'N Roller Coaster pics- thanks, Brandon, for obscuring my face!"



To which he replied "Anytime! :)" and yes, that is that characteristic smiley again.

Sigh. I can't wait to be back in 74 days and take pictures like this again. I really can't wait.

I'm going to bed now...

Much love.

And This Totally...

....rocks.

Niki is filling out the application now for the CP. Heck yes!!!!!!

Good practice for me being a campus rep.

That's all.

Much love.

So I'm Sitting Here In the Lobby...

....chatting with one of my friends from Honors last year and she asks me about Disney. Ahhhh, I get to discuss my second-favorite subject (after the Gospel, of course!)!!! So awesome! I launch into a huge discription about the housing and my work location and pay and hours and all that jazz. She wants to apply. More power to her, we need all the CPs we can get down there.

Which in turn makes me want to fast forward my life 75 days and be back in Orlando. Sigh. If only I could time travel. It would be uber glorious. I need to find out if Brandon has heard anything or not yet regarding his supposed CP. The BYU Idaho campus presentation was today. Today. They had three- one yesterday and two today. I hope he went to one of them. He told me he was going to go back in January for the winter. Sigh. He better. I'm holding him to that statement. He said it with a smiley face too. On Facebook. So on Facebook, with a smiley face... yeah, that has to mean something. I know him quite well and I don't think he'd just say it and not mean it. Not Brandon. No way. I miss him, my favorite Mormon guy (Em and Katie are tied for favorite Mormon chicas). I miss him so so so so much. So much.

My head feels so much better. The dope the school nurse gave me was extraordinarily potent. I only took one of the two pills she gave me. She wrote me an excuse for Sociology and Speech too. Hallelujah. Dr. T was out again... I think I mentioned that already though in my previous update. Still haven't read Othello. And I just realized that Music Appreciation essays are due tomorrow. Oh snap.

I best go do all that.

Much love.

Don't You Just Love...

...days with no classes?

Yup, that was today. Migraine killed my first two, and Dr. T is out so no World Lit. Yay!! Still have a headache, but at least I'm not in in World Lit dealing with it. We have to read Othello. Should be interesting.

Dr. Taylor needs to email me back about the Honors Society project. Amen.

And not much longer till this all ends... Hallelujah praise Jesus!

I'm going to go eat something and dose up on this medicine the school nurse gave me.

Much love.

It's Another One Of...

....those nights where I am in absolutely no way, shape, or form tired or sleepy or exhausted. Go me! Must be my caffeine intake for the day... I've tried cutting way back on that but there are times when Diet Cokes are oh-so-tempting. And rather than squash the temptation, I give in. Sigh. Bad me.

I'm in a writing mood tonight. Yeah, according to WEbook I am now a Top Writer. Woohoo!! I had no clue I had posted so many of my stories on there, but I obviously have. I specialize in LDS fiction, mainly romance and historical works. It's fun. I love to write, particularly to get my feelings out of my head and onto paper. We all know I have a ton of feelings...

It's so weird lately, my sleeping patterns have been whacked. I toss and turn, flip and flop, wake up constantly... only to have all this punctuated by the weirdest, freakiest dreams you can imagine. Not nightmares, no, just.... I don't even think I can get into them and their content on here. Let's put it this way... they're a conglomerate of people I know and places I've been all pureed together in the strangest combinations. They feel so real too. Sigh. Who knows. My subconscious needs to tone it down so I can sleep.

Oh well... till we meet again.

Much love.

So I Take Back...

....What I said last night about Disney getting back to me regarding CP #2 in a couple weeks. I went to check the mail before Journalism this morning and lo and behold, there is that awesome purple folder in my box. Full Service Food and Beverage!!!! Woohoo!! Second choice! Ok, so it isn't Haunted Mansion, but that's ok. I wanted to do F&B again so long as it was table service. I hope I can be a GT again. Glorious!!! Or simply just stand at the podium and look happy. That works too!

So now all of Facebook who has logged on in the past two hours knows. With exception, this excludes Brandon and Em and Katie and those other peeps who need to know ASAP that I am returning, most importantly Brandon, because he told me he was planning to go back. WELL??? I guess I better break my rules I set and text him first this time. Haha. Easier said than done. I'm respectful of a guy, be it my best guy friend or not, and the only time I up and texted him out of the blue was the day he sprained his ankle. See? I am picky about respecting guys and talking to them when the time is right. I still haven't called him! I have rules and guidelines I made for myself.

I must say, the second I get there, all Sundays will quickly be RDOed. I will be at church!!! And Gathering. Sunday is my rest day. Disney or not. No parks, no work.... just church and my friends, along with calling my parents and friends who aren't in Florida.

Dr. T was sick today so no Creative Writing. Darn, I hate that. I love Dr. T's classes. She is an awesome professor. And poor Ms. Newell isn't well either. We're all just blahhhhh lately, aren't we? I recovered from my mild bout of H1N1 and am a-okay. For now. I had a touch of a stomach bug a few nights ago, but other than that.... good to go.

It is finally cold!! So thrilling!! No heat! I'm loving this! Maybe my headaches will go away.

I best start getting ready for work. And email a few peeps regarding the Honors Institute service project. Till we meet again...

Much love.

Hmmm....

....Is about all I can think of to start this post off with.

Ok, got the application started. Just need to write the essays, get the endorsement, and get the HS transcript/ACT scores. First two- easy. Last one.... haha. Fighting with my HS guidance counselor over those is going to be a real picnic. Trust me. She is against me going to BYUI, along with the rest of the state of Mississippi. Exaggeration, I know, but you get the picture.

Ok, and also just waiting for Disney to tell me if CP #2 is a go or not. Should know in a couple weeks. Here's to hoping I get Attractions, specifically Haunted Mansion. My dream WDW job. No resort this time, and no food service unless it is table service!! Seriously! No more QSR unless Artist's Palette needs me.

I have a headache again... as always. I wish I could afford the stronger meds for them. My headaches are wicked. Ugh. I know I have chronic headaches, and sometimes ibuprofen doesn't cut it. Like now. But it's an eye-ache headache from crying.

Like you are surprised.

Hmm.... well. Need to work on the speech. Informative speech, second to last one. I chose to do it on the Titanic. Not the film, the real ship. Always has been a borderline obsession of mine. Then there is the persuasive informative speech, which will be done on the subject of "Is bringing up 'artifacts' from the Titanic graverobbing?" Which it is, to me. Lisa thought it was a good topic, so did Mrs. Cooley.

Here I go, rambling as always.

Enough for now.

Much love.

Just A Question For You...

...Have you ever missed someone so much that you literally felt a pain where your heart is because of it? Have you ever wanted to see someone so badly that you feel like if you don't see them at that precise moment, you will go insane???



Sigh. That's me at the moment. But I think you knew that already. That's been me for the past... six months as of Thursday. I cannot believe it's been six months. It feels like yesterday, but then again, it seems like ten lifetimes ago...



I'm hoping this all will be over in 85 days. That's what I keep praying. President Hinckley said it best, I must say- "Things will work out. If we keep praying and hoping and believing, things will work out. They always do." That might not be an exact quote but you get what I'm saying.



But yeah... I miss you. Oh so very much. Amen.



Random text messages rock, but I'd much rather be about to see you face-to-face.



Much love.

I Can Finally....

....relax and breathe.

Yup. I apply in 6 days, two hours, and about thirty minutes. YES YES YES YES!!!

And 89 days.... well, 88 days, 10 hours, and thirty minutes- give or take a few. Hallelujah praise the Lord. Amen!!!! Back to Disney.... and yup, that too.... Meg was right. How right she was.

So I can quit being so tense and worried all the time. Or so I shall try. Maybe I'll even sleep now. And maybe my subconscious won't conjure up really really weird crap all the time.

That's about all for now.

Much love.

Ok, So First Off....

.... I have an interview Sunday for Disney CP #2!!!! At 5:30pm. Woohoo! Weird too, because last year my interview for CP#1 was 10/11.... hmmmmm. Divine, I know. Literally, divine.

Still haven't made that phone call yet.... give me some time and I will! I promise.

Emmilie will make an A in her English class. I will pray her an A into existance. Amen.

I apply to BYU Idaho in one week, three hours, and about thirty minutes. Hallelujah!!!!

I got a new college ID. Grrrrr.... but I at least have one. I never found the other one. Who knows where it went. It's not in Lisa's car so no clue.

I need to actually go to class tomorrow. Ha. Easier said than done. I think Mrs. Patrick is getting worried about me. But I'm not pouring out my heart to her. No one can know what is going on with me, save for tidbits being told to Lisa.

We read this E.E. Cummings poem in Creative Writing today that totally touched me. "Somewhere I Have Never Traveled." Read it. Ponder it. I understood it. I could relate to it. I nearly started crying as Dr. T read it. It hit me that hard. Seriously.

I have homework..... Auf Wiedersehen.

Much love.

Well, This Is...

....just lovely.

I lost my ID that gets me in and out of the dorm! If it isn't in Lisa's car, no clue where it went. Which means I gotta pay $15 to get a new one... just great!

Oh, well, that's said....

I'm getting a headache. Lovely, lovely.... but it's nearly bedtime so I can sleep it off.

So ok, yeah... hmm. Hmmm.... hmmmm.....

Talked to Elicia! Woohoo!!! Her parents were in Ensign this month. Great article about them!!! Loved it loved it! I'll have to hit up Provo to see her when I get to Rexburg. Her and Sarah and Amy.

Lisa is playing Bonnie Raitt over and over.... hehehe. I know why too. Gotta love it...

Well, if I can use Facebook chat then I can use a flippin' cell phone.... just sayin'.

Yeahhhh....

Talking to Leah now and helping her sort out her problem. Turns out the boy she likes, who didn't want to commit to anyone, is now in a relationship and she is really crushed. I feel terrible for her. I know if.... well, yeah. I just pray it doesn't happen. I don't think it will, considering the circumstances, but still.... things can take a turn for the worst. It happens.

I'm far too caffeinated to sleep right now. Not good. Sigh. Besides, until Brandon and Leah get off Facebook I don't plan on going anywhere.

Ha. Yeah, I just admitted who the other person I am carrying on a cyber convo with is. Oh, well, you knew it to start with. Like that I'm talking to him is a big huge confidential secret.

Though a phone call would be better...

Soon, very soon.

Yawn. Sleepy....

Much love.

And Here I Am...

....back at this lovely excuse for a college, sitting with Lisa having no life.

Okayyy, you know that already.

Moving on.

I have to finish the speech outline. I'm doing a personal narrative, and the said narrative will recount what happened to me on January 30, 2009. Exactly. Yes, THAT.

Ahem.

Anyways....

I was just sitting here thinking about how much I miss everyone. I really really really want to talk to Emmilie right now. CALL ME EMMILIE!!!!!!

And Katie too. Katie would be THE PERSON to discuss my current issues with since she has known about them from day one (uhhh, yeah, I told her everything). She would know exactly what needs to be done.

Plus there is one more person I am calling this week, one night.... yup. I am soooo weary of Facebooking him, and random text messages and whatnot.... we need to have a conversation vocally. Sure, face-to-face would rock my socks off, but seeing as I am here and he is there, not gonna happen at the moment. As he said, his phone is always open.

Yeah, I know that. I've always known that. I just cannot will my fingers to punch in his number and talk to him. I have no clue why. I know that I can tell him (almost) everything. What's wrong with me, anyway? It's Brandon, for crying out loud. Like he's not going to want to talk to me. I don't know why I can't talk to him on the phone, why I can't will myself to do so.

What is wrong with me?

I mean, this is the person that I miss so much that I cry every night because of the pain that missing him induces. Seriously.

Grrrrr.....

Enough of that for now.

I'll let you know what happens.

Much love.

Here's To Wondering....

....why I am still up this late.

Hmm, probably partly because we went to Jackson to see what was supposed to be Toy Story and Toy Story 2 together in 3D. Yeah, well, false advertising.... we only saw TS2 because as it turned out, the first one played at 8pm and the second one at 9:55pm, though it was advertised as both shown as a double feature commensing at 9:55pm. What a rip-off. I mean, sure, seeing the second one was great, but I wanted to see them both. Oh well...

Sigh.

Feeling much much better today. Yay! I see too it is General Conference time... yes!!!! Must get caught up on that. Here's to hoping that by next General Conference, I'm in Rexburg. I apply in 11 days!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, 11 days and I'll be applying for Spring.... finally. So excited.

I need to call Disney this week and get the interview set up... call down to the Church and set that interview up too...

Of course, I have another phone call I need to make this week too, one that you'd think would be easy, but it's not. It's the hardest one to make, even though it was again reiterated to me that I need not worry, the phone is always open.

I know, I know.... but still. We need to talk. I need to get this burden off of me.

Much love.

Well, I Am Still...

.....feeling awful. I can't breathe and my nose is stuffy and I keep sneezing.

Joy..

Yeah, right!

Just sitting here being bored... as always. Nothing to do around here. Duh. Went to McDonald's and got two apple pies though. That made me happy!!!!! I love those things. 2 for $1, can't beat that! I could get ten of them. That wouldn't be healthy, but oh well...

Tired. I took a nap this afternoon too. I kept having weird dreams though. Who knows...

I'll come back.

Much love.

So Here I Sit....

.....blogging at work!!!

Yup, for sure.... This phone has the full keypad so that makes it sooo much easier! Plus there are no character limits on this phone like there were on the Razr.

I still feel icky!!! I skipped all my classes today. I could barely move, barely talk, barely think... I honestly am not worried about this semester. None of it will count at BYU Idaho so whatever.... Sigh.

Not much longer. Here's to hoping the big reunion will be happening in three months. I can live with that. Meg said when I talked to her earlier that it will be happening soon.... You had better be right, Meg!!! You always were in the past.....

I need to talk to that annoying brother of mine... Haha, just kidding as far as annoying goes. Brother John is far from annoying. I miss him too, but I doubt I can make it to Pennsylvania to see him anytime soon. I miss my sisters too.... Monica, Shanice, Ashley, Jen, Jennifer.... And my favorite sisters Katie B., Bri and Hannah. Soon, very soon....

My life sucks without you guys.

I shall return later.

Much love.

Just Because....

....I feel like writing some more.

I mean, yeah, I obviously have no life... Lisa and I reiterate that to ourselves every night as we sit here in the lobby mindlessly staring at our computer screens. We DO have no lives.... it's sad! Poor us!

Well, I did have a life.... it was torn down in April, and the rest of it collapsed on August 7.

Yeah, yeah.... you all know that.

Still don't feel well, but I'm better than earlier.... took two sinus headache pills and they've helped. It's that time life of the year, I guess.

Got a message from Elder Miskell earlier via Facebook. It's so nice to be able to keep in touch with everyone. I am so ready to be out there in Idaho... shame life doesn't come with a fast-forward button.

I'm waiting for my other Lisa to call me back... she met Glenn Beck twice yesterday (in Seattle and in Mt. Vernon) and I want to hear the details, details, details.... I wish I could have been there with her. We would have had a blast!!

I need to finish the WDW CP application so I can have the interview within the next two weeks. Then I need to call down to the church in Laurel and get an interview set up to have my ecclesiastical endorsement filled out and sent on its merry way. Need to get the ACT scores and the high school transcript... so by the time the 15th gets here, I'll be more than ready. Oh, and I need to get my dad to pay the $30 processing fee with his credit card. NOT my mom. No way am I asking her. I'll have my credit card by then so I might can do it, but it'll be easier getting my dad to help with that.

Yup, I'm finally getting a credit card. The Wal Mart Discover card so I can finally get my gas for $2.05 a gallon (that's how much it is in Laurel!!!!!). The stations here in Ellisville are ripping people off- I mean, gas is $2.40 here and anywhere from $2.05-$2.25 in Laurel? Please. Just another reason I hate small towns.

So I'm lucky I didn't get burned tonight.... I was heating the soup in the microwave and when I took it out, a pocket of air in it popped and soup went flying everywhere! Luckily no major damage was done... and the soup was a-ok. I love any kind of chowder, of course it was ok. And of course I had my Halloween Oreos.....

I think I'll quit and come back later.

Much love.

I Thought Earlier.....

....that I seriously HAD contracted the swine flu. No joke.

I had being feeling funky since about midnight last night... weird headache, kinda achy all over.... went to sleep (but barely got any). Woke up this morning with a headache that was RAGING, a sore throat, drainy mucus junk running down my throat, runny nose, sore all over.... I'm not kidding!!! I told my parents I seriously felt blah blah blah! Laid back down till around 4pm then left to come back to JCJC.... well, two boiling hot showers later (inhaling the aroma of my lavender bath goods in the steam of the shower to open my head up) and with a bowl of potato and ham chowder in me, I feel immensely better. My head isn't fully done aching, and my throat is still pouring mess, but I feel better. Perhaps I needed the hot soup and the steaming showers and the nap. Yes, yes, it helped tremendously...

I think I know what my problem is though. A little six letter word we like to call STRESS.

Plus, whenever I cry continuously for several days on end, this happens too. My eyes were the main piece of me aching, after my poor head, of course.

This is all such a nightmare.

The only good thing is I have a great support system as far as the whole BYU Idaho transfer goes. Both my Lisas, Brandon, Em, Katie, Elicia, Elder Miskell, my dad.... the most surprising one is my dad. I never thought he'd support me, but he is. My mom seems to be against it. You'd think she'd be for it, but noooo...... she's too wrapped up in the Enterprise school district and impressing them to care. My grandma, her mother, is against it too... why I have no clue. We live in the same town and I haven't seen either set of my grandparents in over a year. At least my dad has agreed to pay whatever it costs. He knows I want out of here. I'm miserable.

I want to get away from Mississippi...

And, I want some shred of my old life back. The life I had from Janaury till April.

I want to be back with Brandon. And Emmilie.

I miss them more than I have ever missed anyone in my life. I love them both oh so much and can't wait to see them again. I hope that won't be much longer.

Uhhhh..... sneezing. Eew. I better go for now.

Much love.

It Was One Of Those Days....

.....but who is surprised?

I have the area music loop from the now-dead Wonders Of Life pavilion playing now. That 63 minutes of musical genius always makes me so nostalgic. Epcot did a horrid thing by closing it. But not getting into that now...

My head is pounding. Throbbing. Raging. Searing. Pulsating. Aching. Any synonym for hurting you can think of. I cried a good bit again today. As always. I need to invest in waterproof mascara..... My eyes are burning too. Even my teeth hurt. But this isn't anything new- I hurt like this in my head every day.

It's so funny how pain manifests itself. My head, neck, eyes, arms, every inch of me aches all over. I'm not sick. The H1N1 swine flu hasn't overtaken me. It's just depression. Loneliness. The never-ending feeling of despair.

I miss him. More than anyone can imagine. More than anyone can conceive to know.

No need to tell who I miss.... those who know me know.

18 days and I'll have the application submitted. Then maybe this nightmare will be over.

I can only pray it will.

Much love.

It's the Great Pumpkin.....

....on my blog!!!!

I love Halloween. Can't wait for it!!! We're doing an Edgar Allan Poe-themed costume party this year (well, the creative writing club is). My costume is themed for "The Raven" and I'm going as Lenore.... the biggest task is finding a raven to carry.... I think I'll go to Spirit Halloween next week to get my cloak that I want to wear with the costume and inquire about ordering a raven. Dr. Townsend said she'd ensure I'm excused from classes on the 30th to read from "The Raven" all decked out and then participate in the various events. That's about the only thing about JCJC that is good this year.

So I rather like this pumpkin layout.

Much love.

I Suppose I Should Figure Out....

....quite a few things that would make my existance much easier if I could solve them. Not that I likely will, but it never hurts to try.

I mean, above all else, why is it that some nights I stay up till freaking 5am because I can't sleep and others I hit the hay at 9pm and am dead to the world? Answer me that.... hmmmm, bet you can't any more than I can.

Maybe I just have whacked-out sleeping habits... or maybe I just crash at the end of the week. Or maybe it's due to my overwhelming sadness that hits me at the worst possible moments.

That might be it.

And also.... why is time dragging? Come on, it could speed up some! Be October 15 so my application could be done and sent off.... be December 18 so I can be done with this current college.... be January 6 so I can (hopefully) be in Orlando..... be April 20 so I can be in Rexburg.

I told my mom today I just want to be out there. I told her I want to see Brandon. And Emmilie. Mainly Brandon, but still.... I also want to see Jordan. Shaun. Go down to Provo and see Elicia and Amy. Maybe even see Sarah.

I just want my old life back. The life I had from January to April 15.

April 15 is a rather black day in history, agreed? Tax Day... the day Abraham Lincoln died.... the day the Titanic sank... Sacco and Vanzetti supposedly murdered those two men.... numerous WWII battles were fought..... the Hillsoborough Disaster took place in England..... Tianenmen Square protests.... and for me, it is the day when my world came to a rude and abrupt halt.

Maybe that halt will move again soon. I have faith it will.

Much love.

And One More...

....thing to add.

There still are good people in this world. Seriously.

I'm sitting here in the lobby on the laptop. A girl comes up to me and asks if I have ten cents, as she is short by that amount for the drink machine. I do. I give her the dime. She thanks me.

Two minutes later, she comes back and repays my dime.

Now, it's a dime. I don't worry about change like that. Ten bucks, maybe, but a dime... nope. But she repayed me. I don't know her, she doesn't know me. I was just helping a sister out. I don't expect payment back. But I got it.

Yet another moment to warm my heart and soul. Things are getting better!

Hallelujah, amen!!!

I'm done for the night blogging. For real. Just wanted to say that.

Much love!

Going Back To....

.....what I posted yesterday. Yeah, that. Uh-huh.

Anywhoo...

Funny, I've been patiently waiting for said happy happy joy joy moment for a while and finally got one. Here's to hoping my continuing patience will pay off big time.

That's all.

Much love.

Well It's About Time...

...that I had a happy happy joy joy, jump-up-and-down, shout and holler, cry tears of delight day.

Ok, so maybe I didn't do all those things, but I did have a happy happy joy joy moment getting ready to go to Journalism. When I get a text message on my totally awesome LG Xenon, it doesn't register who the message is from until you open it, just to let you know, (my old junky Motorazr did show who messages were from, which was kind of deflating since the element of surprise would get sucked away). So the message that popped up on the screen at 11:07am simply said "1 New Message" before I opened it. I figured it was my mom telling me something or asking an English question since she was subbing for the 10th grade English class today. Or maybe one of the messages I get from The Weather Channel telling me the day's forecast.... Or a text from someone still in Florida, like Gina or Hannah or Katie B.

Uhhh, noooo..... none of the above.

It was from my very favorite person on the face of whole entire earth.

Yeah, and we all know who that is..... that would be the one-and-only Brandon.

See, that's just living proof that God is all around us and He listens to us when we pray, AND that the Holy Spirit lives in all of us and tells us what to do and when to do it.

And perhaps it's also proof that when you least expect something, it happens.

Because, I pray every night for something small and unexpected, for a miracle, for an answer.... I know God listens to me. He gave me something to smile about this morning. He let me know that one of my most cherished friends still thinks about me and still loves me.

Hallelujah!!!

Much love.

Well well well well....

....Well.

Ahem.

Not much to say here... not much going on. Just still breathing, still waking up everyday, I guess is the greatest thing I'm doing. Oh yeah, and praying, but that goes without saying.

I hate JCJC. I'm reiterating that once again. Just for clarification. Just to make things uber crystal clear. Sparkling uber crystal clear.

Ok, moving on from that....

23 days left. Three weeks, two days. Until I can officially submit the BYU Idaho application for the spring.Needless to say, I am desperate for that day to come. I can't stand the wait much longer. It's excruciating!!!

The only thing about it that isn't quite so uber cool is that Emmilie will be in Ukraine when I get to Idaho (might as well say it- like they're really going to turn me down). But my numero uno friend Brandon will be there- or so he better be. He'll be in a tremendous amount of trouble if he isn't for some strange reason (you know I'm kidding, Brandon). He's a ginormous chunk of why I'm going out there. Him, Em, and being surrounded by other Mormons and getting a solid Gospel education. Paradise, if you ask me. All idyllically set in Idaho.

Yay!!!! My parents should thrilled to be shelling out the money for this one. Better than shelling out the $20K plus for USM every year. I don't really think they want that any more than I do.

Enough rambling.....

Much love.

I Was Just Sitting Here Thinking.....

......About how great it will be when I finally have a life again. I haven't had a true life in over five months. The final shred of a semi-normal life vanished last month, and here I sit, languishing away in Mississippi, reminiscing about the way things used to be with anyone who will listen. That is mainly my mother, and I can only do that when my crazy brother is being quiet, my father is off doing something, and my insufferable sister is as far away as humanly possible. I thought at first talking about the memories would make it easier for me to accept the fact that those days are gone, but it hasn't. I don't think anything will ever make me accept that fact.

April seems like a million years away. Even January, a hopeful month for me because things might change even sooner than I have planned, seems too far away to imagine. Even the pivotal date of October 15, in a mere 3 weeks, seems like another lifetime from now.

All I have left is faith, hope, and love....

Faith in God, faith that He will answer the prayer I have spoken every day and every night since 2:25pm on April 15, 2009. Faith that everything will be all right, that my patience will make everything worthwhile in the end.

Hope that this time next year, I'll look back and laugh over all the tears I cried, laugh about those tears with the person who I shed them for and who I shed them over. Hope that I can wake up and see that my pillow is free from tears, free from the streaks of mascara that rub off on the fabric when I cry.

Love for those around me who are helping me achieve this dream, this goal, this reality. Love for the one person that saved me, that opened my eyes to so many things.... faith and hope that my love for him will never die, no matter what happens.

That's all for now. My internet is finicky tonight, so best I post this while my connection is strong.

Much love.

In Other News...

....I start working tomorrow. Thankfully!! Now I shall have money to buy gas and pay on the car.

Going to Hattiesburg on Saturday to buy business attire.... AKA work clothes which will then be promoted to BYUI clothes.

I can't believe I just ate an entire footlong tuna Subway and a snack sized bag of chips.... Hmmm, I must have been hungry.

I just..... Sigh. Yeah. The usual.

Much love.

Just a Few Things...

....I must say. Ahem...

I hate my community college with a passion. Ok, that down.

I need to write that music essay as in right now or Ms. Newell is not going to like me anymore.

Creative writing is the only class here that is holding my attention thus far, seeing as I love to write and read and all that jazz.

I was reading my Gospel Principles book this morning I brought home from Florida and I am prouder and prouder every day to be LDS. Hmmm, could be a bumper sticker... though around here my car would likely get keyed if, plastered to the lovely behind of my 2002 Saturn L200, was a sticker that said "Proud to be LDS!" Oh well....

I got a job offer from SCMRC earlier. In HR doing filing and scanning. Woohoo!!

I hate texting my dad because he NEVER texts back. As in.... NEVER!!

I am uber hungry but am too lazy to walk down to the sub shop and grab something. I can wait three hours till dinner time, I just know it.

And on my final note....

.....I miss Emmilie.

I miss Aaron.

I miss Katie.

And I extremely and totally and completely miss Brandon. Sorry Em, Aaron, and Katie... but I think you guys know I miss Brandon the most.

Much love.

So As I Sit Here...

....I realize a better use of my time today would not have been sleeping from 1pm til 6pm. But hey, it was dark and rainy, I was feeling a little blahhhh, this isn't a good date for me anyways, seeing as it's been five months......

Question of the millenium- IS IT APRIL 2010 YET???

Ok, nope, it isn't.... carry on.

So I have to go on SCRMC's website and fill out more job applications..... write the essay for Ms. Newell..... do Dr. Townsend's creative writing homework..... write the essay for Ms. Griffin's class on my political beliefs.... and oh, yeah, start getting my application ready for WDW in January. And one more month till I apply for BYU Idaho!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe there is light at the end of this loooooong tunnel. I think I can see it now. Very very faint..... but still there.

Much love.

So Here I Am Again...

.....Updating this thing at the most random and sporadic time. Sounds about like something I would do. I mean, being spontaneous is a good thing, sure.... but not all the time.



Ok, that's said....



I was reading Em's latest entry about "the hunt" and yeah..... I can't wait to be on that same prowl when I get to Rexburg. Ok, so I already have some experience.... but honestly, I'm only on the prowl for one person and until that one person ends up off the market, so to speak.... yeah. But even that prowl is not an easy one.

Enough of that. That one person is the reason why I've been in such a sad state lately. And by sad, I mean sad- melancholy, distressed, moping, depressed, whatever. Tomorrow it will be five months.... here's to hoping I survive it without a major meltdown. I've been getting those lately- long crying fits that seem to last for a looooong time. Sigh. I hope it will all be over soon.

In happier news, yesterday was the 6 month anniversary of my baptism. I've been LDS officially for 6 months. How glorious it is!!!!

Much love.

I Need to Do Myself a Favor....

..... and QUIT THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!

Ok, got that said.

I'm serious. I stayed up till 5:30am because the usual was on my mind and I couldn't sleep. I in turn slept till 4:20pm today.... that's right. 4:20 in the afternoon. I haven't done that in over three years. I only sleep like that when I'm really sad or depressed. And I'm both of those right now. This is also when I break out the super-sad music in iTunes, songs that never fail to make me cry. Seems that's all I do anymore.

It wasn't so bad from May until I came home. I was still in Florida and had other things to occupy my mind. I had Katie with me still, and I remember sitting in her apartment that night and admitting the truth to her, which she of course had already picked up on. I still had my friends that hadn't left me, such as Emmilie, until the end. I was always so grateful that my friend Debbie came to see me the week of April 26th, and that Ashley came up from Palm Beach on April 18th. Things like that, right after it happened, made me able to cope. I met Hannah and she helped me cope too. Bridget came back and helped.

Then came August 7 and I left, like certain individuals did to me in April.

Being at home, where I don't want to be, makes it worse. I can tolerate my 9yo brother (I mean, it's not his fault he has ADHD and is deaf in one ear). I am fine with my mom. I'm starting to be able to be around my dad. But my sister is intolerable. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but it's true. She needs to grow up and quit having my parents fight her battles for her. I'll help her with anything, be it ACT studying, Mrs. Cook's English class, or anything else, but she doesn't deserve it the way she acts. It's frustrating to me.

I've found, ever since my conversion to the LDS church, that I'm a much more calm, placid person. I'm willing to do anything for my family. I'm assured of my faith. My mother and I had a long talk about my faith a few days ago. She at first didn't want me to go to BYUI because of all the usual Mormon stereotypes she'd heard, but she now knows what a wonderful and true faith. Such as the stereotype one of the elementary teachers gave her- when the lady told my mom that I didn't need to go to BYUI and be with Mormons, that the boys would attempt to make me one of their ten wives.

Disgusting. And ignorant.

But that's typical of the people here. What they don't know about, they fear. It's a shame, really. It makes me sad. Lisa is the only one here at the school who doesn't act like I'm a freak. Pam, of course, will just condemn me to hell. She condemned Lisa for being Catholic, so she'll do me the same way.

I hate the Baptist church, which is Pam's faith, along with about 90% of the rest of this state. They are nothing but hypocrits. So sad, really, for supposed Christians. All the ones who are drunk on Friday nights show up at some Baptist church to be high and mighty on Sunday. Nope. Doesn't work that way. Your body is a temple; keep it that way.

I better quit writing this and write my creative writing character sketches.

Much love.

Time Is Passing Oh So Slowly....

.....It seems. Yeah, I know it's September, but still. It needs to be April 20, 2010. Then I'll cease to complain. But I have seven months and two weeks left till then, according to the little countdown banner I made. Hurry up and get here....

My headaches are much better. Got new glasses and new contacts. So amazing how correcting a simple problem stops whatever discomfort a person has. Now if I could just make my heart quit aching, we'd be good. There's only one way to do that, of course.... I doubt I'll be curing that ache any time soon. That's why I'm so anxious for April to get here- or even Janaury, if everything goes as planned. More on that as the time draws nearer.

I hate Jones Junior College with a passion. Enough said. I cannot WAIT for December 18 too. That's the day I leave that place forever!! Happy happy joy joy!!

On another note.... had a job interview at SCRMC a couple days ago in Laurel. Went really well too. Apparently no one wants to work in the E.R. from 3pm-11pm. I'll be glad too. I'm used to that shift anyway, since my WDW shifts were usually in that time frame. I'm praying they hire me. I need this job badly!!

I need to go on to bed.... it's 2:37am. Ok, turning the sappy songs off in iTunes and commencing sleep in 3....2....1......

Much love.

Oh, And By The Way...

..... I want to hurry autumn along, so I changed my template to reflect that. That's all

Much love!!!!

And Once Again....

...... My head hurts!!!! Grrrr!!!!! This is getting ridiculous! I need either better corrective lenses or a head transplant!!! Ok, just joking on the last part..... seriously. That was a joke.

I got my dorm. Yayyyy me!!! Haha. At least my roomie is a) in the band, b) quiet, c) a freshman, and d) nice. Her name is Devan. Of course, my darling little sister Bri Bri (ok, my adopted sister.... not my real one) popped into my head since that's her first name! Which made me miss my little Bri Bri sooo much..... I wish I was back at Disney with her. And my twin Katie. And my Hannah!!!!! Grrr.....

.....Which in turn makes me miss my other Katie, and my Emmilie, and my sweetie Fernando far far away in Brazil..... and my numero uno beloved friend I miss, my dear Brandon. 'Course, I'll be likely seeing both Emmilie and Brandon in the spring but still..... Missing people I love hurts!!! I still cry every day when I think about.... ok, me, that's enough. No sense in digging that up again. Not now. Not yet.

I'm not really going to bother buying books this year for classes. I'm serious. A $130 Marriage and Family book that Mr. Perritt isn't using, that I'll get back $50 for at the end of the year?? Nope. No way on earth! I'll take meticulous notes, thank you!!

Now quit hurting, head..... and be still, my heart.

Much love.

My Head Hurts....

.....Like you really care to know, but still.... I'm saying it anyway. I need stronger glasses/contacts. No wonder my eyes have been throbbing so much lately!!!

I was successful in ditching Spanish II. Now I'm in Marriage and the Family. Hey, might as well take that.... I'll be needing it sooner or later!!! Since marriage will likely be happening within the next 2-3 years or so for me.... so I hope. I've realized lately how ready I am to go to the temple and get married and then start a family. I can't wait!!!!!!!!

So tomorrow I have to be at school at 9:30am for Music Appreciation, then Government, the Journalism, then Creative Writing. Here's to hoping I'm headache-free tomorrow!

On another note.... I can't wait to get a dorm. I found a ward in Laurel and can't wait to go to church again (hopefully Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). That is all.

Much love.

Here I Am Again...

.....Back in wonderful Mississippi. Gag me please. Ugh! I hate this place. I now realize even more why I left it for seven months. VERY smart decision on my part. Of course, here's to hoping by the end of the year, I'll be out of here permanently. Because if everything goes as planned, I'll go to Orlando in January then head on out to Rexburg in April. Woo hoo!!! I cannot WAIT to see this place disappear in my rearview mirror forever.

I start classes tomorrow. Fuuuun. I'm rearranging my schedule though. I don't much prefer to take Spanish II and Government. I need more literature classes. Just for the heck of it.

It's been a hard past few days.... ok, so you'd think four months later I'd be over it but I'm not. I don't think I'll ever get over it.... and "it" is not something I plan on explaining in this post. If you know me, you know what I'm taking about. Enough said, ok?

So this means an early bedtime... lack of a dorm temporarily means a commute and since the soon-to-be-dumped Spanish class is at 8:30am.... yeah. You guessed it.

Much love.

So So So So So..... Yeah...

Oh dear.... it's been awhile but I'm here again. It's called ten hour shifts every day.... grr. And I'm an idiot and help out by filling in the open shifts on my off days.... I just do that for my supervisor/favorite manager Dave. He pulls a lot of strings for me so I do things in return to cut him some slack since so many cast members love to call in.

So whatever..... rant over. A more reasonable post shall follow.

Much love.

Okayyyy.....!!

Now that my venting is out of the way.... might as well post on a happier note.

First, I get to see my mom in nine days!! Yay! Awesomeness!!! She can meet all the wonderful people in my life and see Saratoga Springs... and eat around the World at Epcot!! Sweetness!!!

Second... is it Friday yet? My off day in Saint Augustine with... KATIE!!!!!!!!!!! My twin!! And Bri, my little sister!! And probably Fernando... my, uhhh.... well, not brother... I guess just very good friend will do. The beach... ahhhh. I can smell the salty air and hear the waves already!

Third.... I work tomorrow. Short shift!! 11:45am-7:15pm. So Illuminations afterwards! And Julie won't be there to annoy the crap out of me.... just me, Hannah (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), Winkie (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), and Michelle (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). I shall survive tomorrow! I shall!!

And hey Emmilie... I see you following my blog! Way to go girlfriend! :D

I'm going to shut up and go to bed.... till then....

Much love.

The World is Not Perfect...

And by the world, I mean specifically Disney World. Let's clarify that right now.

2am. As in 2am today. Monorail crash. The red and purple monorails. They didn't crash and flip off the tracks or anything. But the driver of the purple monorail is dead.

So here's what happened- of course, due to the 4th of July, the World runs fireworks at Magic Kingdom, Epcot, and Hollywood Studios late. Purple monorail was at the station (Epcot, judging from the photos) picking up passengers. Red monorail was done for the night, so red monorail's driver began backing up the train to move it into position to head to the place where monorails are stored (neat place, like a big garage- it's on our MK bus route). Somehow, red monorail did not get word that purple monorail was still operating on the tracks. So at 15mph, here it comes backing up.... straight into the cab of the purple monorail.

The driver of purple was barely older than me- 21 year old Austin Wuennenberg. He was a junior at Stetson University and was from here in Florida (Kissimmee). Nice looking young man, from the photo on Fox News's website. Apparently he had minimal training in monorail operations. Great.... Disney, hope you're happy. Your stupidity cost a colleague of mine his life.

No, I didn't personally know Austin. But I bet I've met him before. I frequented the monorails a lot when Shaun was still here- I used to always take them to Epcot, MK, the TTC, the resorts.... I knew most of the drivers because I usually sat up front. Now I'd be willing to bet monorail operations will be down for weeks, and riding in the front will be a thing of the past. My brother always wanted to get to ride up front.... but he likely never will get to. What a shame.

Disney is not perfect. Sorry to let the people who think it is know that. Disney is run by men. If God ran Disney, it would be perfect. But He doesn't; men do. Therefore, anything man runs is naturally fallible. Things break, things falter.... but nothing should cause anyone to die.

I only hope Austin's family gets the closure and peace they deserve. Disney had better step back and take a good hard look at how they treat their cast members. They need to take off their rose-colored glasses and see just how things really are.

For those of you interested in the story, here are the links-

http://www.myfoxorlando.com/dpp/news/orange_news/070509deadlymonorailaccident

http://www.myfoxorlando.com/dpp/news/local/070509MonorailCrashVictimRembered

And though I didn't exactly know you.... Rest in peace, Austin.

Much love.

I'm Waiting....

....for a miracle.

So I'm in the middle of applying to BYU in Rexburg. AKA, the campus in Idaho. I've got almost everything submitted.... but I'm afraid. I'm afraid I won't get in this fall. That I'll have to wait til April 2010.

I don't want to wait.

Unless, it's in the Lord's Will. THEN I shall wait. But otherwise... well, give me an answer, please, Lord!

'Tis all for now.

Much love.

Great. Just Great.

Grrr....

Our country is going to hell in a handbasket. Excuse my French, but it's true.

First off.... Governor Palin resigned. Ummm.... yeah. I'm wondering what this will do for her political career- help her or hurt her. There goes her chance of running for president in 2012. I'm hoping this move will be good for her. But I think it's just a bigger blot on the conservatives. First Governor Sanford in SC, now her. Notice the liberals are totally pure and blameless... uh-huh. Yeah, right.

And another thing.... you BYUIers answer, please. Why no more political clubs on campus? Are things just getting too nasty in politics, and rather than bring that on campus, you choose to keep the pureness of the Gospel first? That's my thought. I'd prefer to see BYUI kept a conservative campus. That's a big reason I'm going there. This Mormon wants a nice gospel centered, conservative education.... no politics please!

Rant over. Thanks for listening.

Much love.

So Anyways....

....Yeah. I need to go to sleep. I have to catch the 9:55am bus tomorrow to go to work. Ick. A loooong day ahead of me. But it's all good, I have two days in a row off!!

....So anyways... that's about all I have to say.

Much love.