I Thought Earlier.....

....that I seriously HAD contracted the swine flu. No joke.

I had being feeling funky since about midnight last night... weird headache, kinda achy all over.... went to sleep (but barely got any). Woke up this morning with a headache that was RAGING, a sore throat, drainy mucus junk running down my throat, runny nose, sore all over.... I'm not kidding!!! I told my parents I seriously felt blah blah blah! Laid back down till around 4pm then left to come back to JCJC.... well, two boiling hot showers later (inhaling the aroma of my lavender bath goods in the steam of the shower to open my head up) and with a bowl of potato and ham chowder in me, I feel immensely better. My head isn't fully done aching, and my throat is still pouring mess, but I feel better. Perhaps I needed the hot soup and the steaming showers and the nap. Yes, yes, it helped tremendously...

I think I know what my problem is though. A little six letter word we like to call STRESS.

Plus, whenever I cry continuously for several days on end, this happens too. My eyes were the main piece of me aching, after my poor head, of course.

This is all such a nightmare.

The only good thing is I have a great support system as far as the whole BYU Idaho transfer goes. Both my Lisas, Brandon, Em, Katie, Elicia, Elder Miskell, my dad.... the most surprising one is my dad. I never thought he'd support me, but he is. My mom seems to be against it. You'd think she'd be for it, but noooo...... she's too wrapped up in the Enterprise school district and impressing them to care. My grandma, her mother, is against it too... why I have no clue. We live in the same town and I haven't seen either set of my grandparents in over a year. At least my dad has agreed to pay whatever it costs. He knows I want out of here. I'm miserable.

I want to get away from Mississippi...

And, I want some shred of my old life back. The life I had from Janaury till April.

I want to be back with Brandon. And Emmilie.

I miss them more than I have ever missed anyone in my life. I love them both oh so much and can't wait to see them again. I hope that won't be much longer.

Uhhhh..... sneezing. Eew. I better go for now.

Much love.