So Yes It Is...

...Halloween today. Excellent. Not much going on. There's candy in the house and I can't quit eating it. Not a good thing, but oh well...

I can't believe it snowed in Rexburg yesterday. Yet here it was ninety degrees two days ago. Rained yesterday and is now freezing. I wish it would snow. I'll take arctic temps any day over the sauna we have here.

I need to finish that speech. Oh, well, I have till Thursday to do so. No big deal.

66 more days... that's hardly any time left.

Off for now.

Much love.

Just Wanted To....

....wish everyone a Happy Halloween!!! Or All Hallow's Eve. Day of the Dead. You get the picture.

November is starting Sunday. Sheesh. Plus I get an extra hour of sleep tomorrow. Joy joy!!!

If you're gonna Facebook me, chat back with me when I reply, Brandon. Thank you.

Off to finish listening to Tapestry of Nations and count the days... 66 left!! Oh and Meagan is coming too. So I have a classmate joining me. Woooohoooo!!!

Good night, moon.

Much love.

I Just Had To....

....change my template. I was tired of the Great Pumpkin.

That's all.

Much love.

I Am....

....back again. Yes, again.

Helped Niki fill out the app. Woohoo!! My first time recruiting, though it was 11pm in the dorm lobby. Still works. Still counts. Still awesome!!!

Anyways...

I was going through all my pictures from the CP and I got so nostalgic and a tiny bit weepy. Seeing me and Brandon and Sarah and Aaron and Em and Katie and Jordan and Shaun and Elicia and Amy and on and on all together made me slightly sad. For example, I came across our Rock 'N Roller Coaster pics from the day we (as in me, Brandon, Sarah, Jordan, and Aaron) hit up DHS. The night of the turkey leg and Fantasmic and me freaking on Tower of Terror and the Tower of Terror DVD and so on.... but, back on track- I found our coaster pics and was looking at them. Examples are as follows-





But my favorite is this one, appropriately captioned as "One of our Rock 'N Roller Coaster pics- thanks, Brandon, for obscuring my face!"



To which he replied "Anytime! :)" and yes, that is that characteristic smiley again.

Sigh. I can't wait to be back in 74 days and take pictures like this again. I really can't wait.

I'm going to bed now...

Much love.

And This Totally...

....rocks.

Niki is filling out the application now for the CP. Heck yes!!!!!!

Good practice for me being a campus rep.

That's all.

Much love.

So I'm Sitting Here In the Lobby...

....chatting with one of my friends from Honors last year and she asks me about Disney. Ahhhh, I get to discuss my second-favorite subject (after the Gospel, of course!)!!! So awesome! I launch into a huge discription about the housing and my work location and pay and hours and all that jazz. She wants to apply. More power to her, we need all the CPs we can get down there.

Which in turn makes me want to fast forward my life 75 days and be back in Orlando. Sigh. If only I could time travel. It would be uber glorious. I need to find out if Brandon has heard anything or not yet regarding his supposed CP. The BYU Idaho campus presentation was today. Today. They had three- one yesterday and two today. I hope he went to one of them. He told me he was going to go back in January for the winter. Sigh. He better. I'm holding him to that statement. He said it with a smiley face too. On Facebook. So on Facebook, with a smiley face... yeah, that has to mean something. I know him quite well and I don't think he'd just say it and not mean it. Not Brandon. No way. I miss him, my favorite Mormon guy (Em and Katie are tied for favorite Mormon chicas). I miss him so so so so much. So much.

My head feels so much better. The dope the school nurse gave me was extraordinarily potent. I only took one of the two pills she gave me. She wrote me an excuse for Sociology and Speech too. Hallelujah. Dr. T was out again... I think I mentioned that already though in my previous update. Still haven't read Othello. And I just realized that Music Appreciation essays are due tomorrow. Oh snap.

I best go do all that.

Much love.

Don't You Just Love...

...days with no classes?

Yup, that was today. Migraine killed my first two, and Dr. T is out so no World Lit. Yay!! Still have a headache, but at least I'm not in in World Lit dealing with it. We have to read Othello. Should be interesting.

Dr. Taylor needs to email me back about the Honors Society project. Amen.

And not much longer till this all ends... Hallelujah praise Jesus!

I'm going to go eat something and dose up on this medicine the school nurse gave me.

Much love.

It's Another One Of...

....those nights where I am in absolutely no way, shape, or form tired or sleepy or exhausted. Go me! Must be my caffeine intake for the day... I've tried cutting way back on that but there are times when Diet Cokes are oh-so-tempting. And rather than squash the temptation, I give in. Sigh. Bad me.

I'm in a writing mood tonight. Yeah, according to WEbook I am now a Top Writer. Woohoo!! I had no clue I had posted so many of my stories on there, but I obviously have. I specialize in LDS fiction, mainly romance and historical works. It's fun. I love to write, particularly to get my feelings out of my head and onto paper. We all know I have a ton of feelings...

It's so weird lately, my sleeping patterns have been whacked. I toss and turn, flip and flop, wake up constantly... only to have all this punctuated by the weirdest, freakiest dreams you can imagine. Not nightmares, no, just.... I don't even think I can get into them and their content on here. Let's put it this way... they're a conglomerate of people I know and places I've been all pureed together in the strangest combinations. They feel so real too. Sigh. Who knows. My subconscious needs to tone it down so I can sleep.

Oh well... till we meet again.

Much love.

So I Take Back...

....What I said last night about Disney getting back to me regarding CP #2 in a couple weeks. I went to check the mail before Journalism this morning and lo and behold, there is that awesome purple folder in my box. Full Service Food and Beverage!!!! Woohoo!! Second choice! Ok, so it isn't Haunted Mansion, but that's ok. I wanted to do F&B again so long as it was table service. I hope I can be a GT again. Glorious!!! Or simply just stand at the podium and look happy. That works too!

So now all of Facebook who has logged on in the past two hours knows. With exception, this excludes Brandon and Em and Katie and those other peeps who need to know ASAP that I am returning, most importantly Brandon, because he told me he was planning to go back. WELL??? I guess I better break my rules I set and text him first this time. Haha. Easier said than done. I'm respectful of a guy, be it my best guy friend or not, and the only time I up and texted him out of the blue was the day he sprained his ankle. See? I am picky about respecting guys and talking to them when the time is right. I still haven't called him! I have rules and guidelines I made for myself.

I must say, the second I get there, all Sundays will quickly be RDOed. I will be at church!!! And Gathering. Sunday is my rest day. Disney or not. No parks, no work.... just church and my friends, along with calling my parents and friends who aren't in Florida.

Dr. T was sick today so no Creative Writing. Darn, I hate that. I love Dr. T's classes. She is an awesome professor. And poor Ms. Newell isn't well either. We're all just blahhhhh lately, aren't we? I recovered from my mild bout of H1N1 and am a-okay. For now. I had a touch of a stomach bug a few nights ago, but other than that.... good to go.

It is finally cold!! So thrilling!! No heat! I'm loving this! Maybe my headaches will go away.

I best start getting ready for work. And email a few peeps regarding the Honors Institute service project. Till we meet again...

Much love.

Hmmm....

....Is about all I can think of to start this post off with.

Ok, got the application started. Just need to write the essays, get the endorsement, and get the HS transcript/ACT scores. First two- easy. Last one.... haha. Fighting with my HS guidance counselor over those is going to be a real picnic. Trust me. She is against me going to BYUI, along with the rest of the state of Mississippi. Exaggeration, I know, but you get the picture.

Ok, and also just waiting for Disney to tell me if CP #2 is a go or not. Should know in a couple weeks. Here's to hoping I get Attractions, specifically Haunted Mansion. My dream WDW job. No resort this time, and no food service unless it is table service!! Seriously! No more QSR unless Artist's Palette needs me.

I have a headache again... as always. I wish I could afford the stronger meds for them. My headaches are wicked. Ugh. I know I have chronic headaches, and sometimes ibuprofen doesn't cut it. Like now. But it's an eye-ache headache from crying.

Like you are surprised.

Hmm.... well. Need to work on the speech. Informative speech, second to last one. I chose to do it on the Titanic. Not the film, the real ship. Always has been a borderline obsession of mine. Then there is the persuasive informative speech, which will be done on the subject of "Is bringing up 'artifacts' from the Titanic graverobbing?" Which it is, to me. Lisa thought it was a good topic, so did Mrs. Cooley.

Here I go, rambling as always.

Enough for now.

Much love.

Just A Question For You...

...Have you ever missed someone so much that you literally felt a pain where your heart is because of it? Have you ever wanted to see someone so badly that you feel like if you don't see them at that precise moment, you will go insane???



Sigh. That's me at the moment. But I think you knew that already. That's been me for the past... six months as of Thursday. I cannot believe it's been six months. It feels like yesterday, but then again, it seems like ten lifetimes ago...



I'm hoping this all will be over in 85 days. That's what I keep praying. President Hinckley said it best, I must say- "Things will work out. If we keep praying and hoping and believing, things will work out. They always do." That might not be an exact quote but you get what I'm saying.



But yeah... I miss you. Oh so very much. Amen.



Random text messages rock, but I'd much rather be about to see you face-to-face.



Much love.

I Can Finally....

....relax and breathe.

Yup. I apply in 6 days, two hours, and about thirty minutes. YES YES YES YES!!!

And 89 days.... well, 88 days, 10 hours, and thirty minutes- give or take a few. Hallelujah praise the Lord. Amen!!!! Back to Disney.... and yup, that too.... Meg was right. How right she was.

So I can quit being so tense and worried all the time. Or so I shall try. Maybe I'll even sleep now. And maybe my subconscious won't conjure up really really weird crap all the time.

That's about all for now.

Much love.

Ok, So First Off....

.... I have an interview Sunday for Disney CP #2!!!! At 5:30pm. Woohoo! Weird too, because last year my interview for CP#1 was 10/11.... hmmmmm. Divine, I know. Literally, divine.

Still haven't made that phone call yet.... give me some time and I will! I promise.

Emmilie will make an A in her English class. I will pray her an A into existance. Amen.

I apply to BYU Idaho in one week, three hours, and about thirty minutes. Hallelujah!!!!

I got a new college ID. Grrrrr.... but I at least have one. I never found the other one. Who knows where it went. It's not in Lisa's car so no clue.

I need to actually go to class tomorrow. Ha. Easier said than done. I think Mrs. Patrick is getting worried about me. But I'm not pouring out my heart to her. No one can know what is going on with me, save for tidbits being told to Lisa.

We read this E.E. Cummings poem in Creative Writing today that totally touched me. "Somewhere I Have Never Traveled." Read it. Ponder it. I understood it. I could relate to it. I nearly started crying as Dr. T read it. It hit me that hard. Seriously.

I have homework..... Auf Wiedersehen.

Much love.

Well, This Is...

....just lovely.

I lost my ID that gets me in and out of the dorm! If it isn't in Lisa's car, no clue where it went. Which means I gotta pay $15 to get a new one... just great!

Oh, well, that's said....

I'm getting a headache. Lovely, lovely.... but it's nearly bedtime so I can sleep it off.

So ok, yeah... hmm. Hmmm.... hmmmm.....

Talked to Elicia! Woohoo!!! Her parents were in Ensign this month. Great article about them!!! Loved it loved it! I'll have to hit up Provo to see her when I get to Rexburg. Her and Sarah and Amy.

Lisa is playing Bonnie Raitt over and over.... hehehe. I know why too. Gotta love it...

Well, if I can use Facebook chat then I can use a flippin' cell phone.... just sayin'.

Yeahhhh....

Talking to Leah now and helping her sort out her problem. Turns out the boy she likes, who didn't want to commit to anyone, is now in a relationship and she is really crushed. I feel terrible for her. I know if.... well, yeah. I just pray it doesn't happen. I don't think it will, considering the circumstances, but still.... things can take a turn for the worst. It happens.

I'm far too caffeinated to sleep right now. Not good. Sigh. Besides, until Brandon and Leah get off Facebook I don't plan on going anywhere.

Ha. Yeah, I just admitted who the other person I am carrying on a cyber convo with is. Oh, well, you knew it to start with. Like that I'm talking to him is a big huge confidential secret.

Though a phone call would be better...

Soon, very soon.

Yawn. Sleepy....

Much love.

And Here I Am...

....back at this lovely excuse for a college, sitting with Lisa having no life.

Okayyy, you know that already.

Moving on.

I have to finish the speech outline. I'm doing a personal narrative, and the said narrative will recount what happened to me on January 30, 2009. Exactly. Yes, THAT.

Ahem.

Anyways....

I was just sitting here thinking about how much I miss everyone. I really really really want to talk to Emmilie right now. CALL ME EMMILIE!!!!!!

And Katie too. Katie would be THE PERSON to discuss my current issues with since she has known about them from day one (uhhh, yeah, I told her everything). She would know exactly what needs to be done.

Plus there is one more person I am calling this week, one night.... yup. I am soooo weary of Facebooking him, and random text messages and whatnot.... we need to have a conversation vocally. Sure, face-to-face would rock my socks off, but seeing as I am here and he is there, not gonna happen at the moment. As he said, his phone is always open.

Yeah, I know that. I've always known that. I just cannot will my fingers to punch in his number and talk to him. I have no clue why. I know that I can tell him (almost) everything. What's wrong with me, anyway? It's Brandon, for crying out loud. Like he's not going to want to talk to me. I don't know why I can't talk to him on the phone, why I can't will myself to do so.

What is wrong with me?

I mean, this is the person that I miss so much that I cry every night because of the pain that missing him induces. Seriously.

Grrrrr.....

Enough of that for now.

I'll let you know what happens.

Much love.

Here's To Wondering....

....why I am still up this late.

Hmm, probably partly because we went to Jackson to see what was supposed to be Toy Story and Toy Story 2 together in 3D. Yeah, well, false advertising.... we only saw TS2 because as it turned out, the first one played at 8pm and the second one at 9:55pm, though it was advertised as both shown as a double feature commensing at 9:55pm. What a rip-off. I mean, sure, seeing the second one was great, but I wanted to see them both. Oh well...

Sigh.

Feeling much much better today. Yay! I see too it is General Conference time... yes!!!! Must get caught up on that. Here's to hoping that by next General Conference, I'm in Rexburg. I apply in 11 days!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, 11 days and I'll be applying for Spring.... finally. So excited.

I need to call Disney this week and get the interview set up... call down to the Church and set that interview up too...

Of course, I have another phone call I need to make this week too, one that you'd think would be easy, but it's not. It's the hardest one to make, even though it was again reiterated to me that I need not worry, the phone is always open.

I know, I know.... but still. We need to talk. I need to get this burden off of me.

Much love.