Well, This Is...

....just lovely.

I lost my ID that gets me in and out of the dorm! If it isn't in Lisa's car, no clue where it went. Which means I gotta pay $15 to get a new one... just great!

Oh, well, that's said....

I'm getting a headache. Lovely, lovely.... but it's nearly bedtime so I can sleep it off.

So ok, yeah... hmm. Hmmm.... hmmmm.....

Talked to Elicia! Woohoo!!! Her parents were in Ensign this month. Great article about them!!! Loved it loved it! I'll have to hit up Provo to see her when I get to Rexburg. Her and Sarah and Amy.

Lisa is playing Bonnie Raitt over and over.... hehehe. I know why too. Gotta love it...

Well, if I can use Facebook chat then I can use a flippin' cell phone.... just sayin'.

Yeahhhh....

Talking to Leah now and helping her sort out her problem. Turns out the boy she likes, who didn't want to commit to anyone, is now in a relationship and she is really crushed. I feel terrible for her. I know if.... well, yeah. I just pray it doesn't happen. I don't think it will, considering the circumstances, but still.... things can take a turn for the worst. It happens.

I'm far too caffeinated to sleep right now. Not good. Sigh. Besides, until Brandon and Leah get off Facebook I don't plan on going anywhere.

Ha. Yeah, I just admitted who the other person I am carrying on a cyber convo with is. Oh, well, you knew it to start with. Like that I'm talking to him is a big huge confidential secret.

Though a phone call would be better...

Soon, very soon.

Yawn. Sleepy....

Much love.

And Here I Am...

....back at this lovely excuse for a college, sitting with Lisa having no life.

Okayyy, you know that already.

Moving on.

I have to finish the speech outline. I'm doing a personal narrative, and the said narrative will recount what happened to me on January 30, 2009. Exactly. Yes, THAT.

Ahem.

Anyways....

I was just sitting here thinking about how much I miss everyone. I really really really want to talk to Emmilie right now. CALL ME EMMILIE!!!!!!

And Katie too. Katie would be THE PERSON to discuss my current issues with since she has known about them from day one (uhhh, yeah, I told her everything). She would know exactly what needs to be done.

Plus there is one more person I am calling this week, one night.... yup. I am soooo weary of Facebooking him, and random text messages and whatnot.... we need to have a conversation vocally. Sure, face-to-face would rock my socks off, but seeing as I am here and he is there, not gonna happen at the moment. As he said, his phone is always open.

Yeah, I know that. I've always known that. I just cannot will my fingers to punch in his number and talk to him. I have no clue why. I know that I can tell him (almost) everything. What's wrong with me, anyway? It's Brandon, for crying out loud. Like he's not going to want to talk to me. I don't know why I can't talk to him on the phone, why I can't will myself to do so.

What is wrong with me?

I mean, this is the person that I miss so much that I cry every night because of the pain that missing him induces. Seriously.

Grrrrr.....

Enough of that for now.

I'll let you know what happens.

Much love.

Here's To Wondering....

....why I am still up this late.

Hmm, probably partly because we went to Jackson to see what was supposed to be Toy Story and Toy Story 2 together in 3D. Yeah, well, false advertising.... we only saw TS2 because as it turned out, the first one played at 8pm and the second one at 9:55pm, though it was advertised as both shown as a double feature commensing at 9:55pm. What a rip-off. I mean, sure, seeing the second one was great, but I wanted to see them both. Oh well...

Sigh.

Feeling much much better today. Yay! I see too it is General Conference time... yes!!!! Must get caught up on that. Here's to hoping that by next General Conference, I'm in Rexburg. I apply in 11 days!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, 11 days and I'll be applying for Spring.... finally. So excited.

I need to call Disney this week and get the interview set up... call down to the Church and set that interview up too...

Of course, I have another phone call I need to make this week too, one that you'd think would be easy, but it's not. It's the hardest one to make, even though it was again reiterated to me that I need not worry, the phone is always open.

I know, I know.... but still. We need to talk. I need to get this burden off of me.

Much love.

Well, I Am Still...

.....feeling awful. I can't breathe and my nose is stuffy and I keep sneezing.

Joy..

Yeah, right!

Just sitting here being bored... as always. Nothing to do around here. Duh. Went to McDonald's and got two apple pies though. That made me happy!!!!! I love those things. 2 for $1, can't beat that! I could get ten of them. That wouldn't be healthy, but oh well...

Tired. I took a nap this afternoon too. I kept having weird dreams though. Who knows...

I'll come back.

Much love.

So Here I Sit....

.....blogging at work!!!

Yup, for sure.... This phone has the full keypad so that makes it sooo much easier! Plus there are no character limits on this phone like there were on the Razr.

I still feel icky!!! I skipped all my classes today. I could barely move, barely talk, barely think... I honestly am not worried about this semester. None of it will count at BYU Idaho so whatever.... Sigh.

Not much longer. Here's to hoping the big reunion will be happening in three months. I can live with that. Meg said when I talked to her earlier that it will be happening soon.... You had better be right, Meg!!! You always were in the past.....

I need to talk to that annoying brother of mine... Haha, just kidding as far as annoying goes. Brother John is far from annoying. I miss him too, but I doubt I can make it to Pennsylvania to see him anytime soon. I miss my sisters too.... Monica, Shanice, Ashley, Jen, Jennifer.... And my favorite sisters Katie B., Bri and Hannah. Soon, very soon....

My life sucks without you guys.

I shall return later.

Much love.

Just Because....

....I feel like writing some more.

I mean, yeah, I obviously have no life... Lisa and I reiterate that to ourselves every night as we sit here in the lobby mindlessly staring at our computer screens. We DO have no lives.... it's sad! Poor us!

Well, I did have a life.... it was torn down in April, and the rest of it collapsed on August 7.

Yeah, yeah.... you all know that.

Still don't feel well, but I'm better than earlier.... took two sinus headache pills and they've helped. It's that time life of the year, I guess.

Got a message from Elder Miskell earlier via Facebook. It's so nice to be able to keep in touch with everyone. I am so ready to be out there in Idaho... shame life doesn't come with a fast-forward button.

I'm waiting for my other Lisa to call me back... she met Glenn Beck twice yesterday (in Seattle and in Mt. Vernon) and I want to hear the details, details, details.... I wish I could have been there with her. We would have had a blast!!

I need to finish the WDW CP application so I can have the interview within the next two weeks. Then I need to call down to the church in Laurel and get an interview set up to have my ecclesiastical endorsement filled out and sent on its merry way. Need to get the ACT scores and the high school transcript... so by the time the 15th gets here, I'll be more than ready. Oh, and I need to get my dad to pay the $30 processing fee with his credit card. NOT my mom. No way am I asking her. I'll have my credit card by then so I might can do it, but it'll be easier getting my dad to help with that.

Yup, I'm finally getting a credit card. The Wal Mart Discover card so I can finally get my gas for $2.05 a gallon (that's how much it is in Laurel!!!!!). The stations here in Ellisville are ripping people off- I mean, gas is $2.40 here and anywhere from $2.05-$2.25 in Laurel? Please. Just another reason I hate small towns.

So I'm lucky I didn't get burned tonight.... I was heating the soup in the microwave and when I took it out, a pocket of air in it popped and soup went flying everywhere! Luckily no major damage was done... and the soup was a-ok. I love any kind of chowder, of course it was ok. And of course I had my Halloween Oreos.....

I think I'll quit and come back later.

Much love.

I Thought Earlier.....

....that I seriously HAD contracted the swine flu. No joke.

I had being feeling funky since about midnight last night... weird headache, kinda achy all over.... went to sleep (but barely got any). Woke up this morning with a headache that was RAGING, a sore throat, drainy mucus junk running down my throat, runny nose, sore all over.... I'm not kidding!!! I told my parents I seriously felt blah blah blah! Laid back down till around 4pm then left to come back to JCJC.... well, two boiling hot showers later (inhaling the aroma of my lavender bath goods in the steam of the shower to open my head up) and with a bowl of potato and ham chowder in me, I feel immensely better. My head isn't fully done aching, and my throat is still pouring mess, but I feel better. Perhaps I needed the hot soup and the steaming showers and the nap. Yes, yes, it helped tremendously...

I think I know what my problem is though. A little six letter word we like to call STRESS.

Plus, whenever I cry continuously for several days on end, this happens too. My eyes were the main piece of me aching, after my poor head, of course.

This is all such a nightmare.

The only good thing is I have a great support system as far as the whole BYU Idaho transfer goes. Both my Lisas, Brandon, Em, Katie, Elicia, Elder Miskell, my dad.... the most surprising one is my dad. I never thought he'd support me, but he is. My mom seems to be against it. You'd think she'd be for it, but noooo...... she's too wrapped up in the Enterprise school district and impressing them to care. My grandma, her mother, is against it too... why I have no clue. We live in the same town and I haven't seen either set of my grandparents in over a year. At least my dad has agreed to pay whatever it costs. He knows I want out of here. I'm miserable.

I want to get away from Mississippi...

And, I want some shred of my old life back. The life I had from Janaury till April.

I want to be back with Brandon. And Emmilie.

I miss them more than I have ever missed anyone in my life. I love them both oh so much and can't wait to see them again. I hope that won't be much longer.

Uhhhh..... sneezing. Eew. I better go for now.

Much love.