Going Back To....

.....what I posted yesterday. Yeah, that. Uh-huh.

Anywhoo...

Funny, I've been patiently waiting for said happy happy joy joy moment for a while and finally got one. Here's to hoping my continuing patience will pay off big time.

That's all.

Much love.

Well It's About Time...

...that I had a happy happy joy joy, jump-up-and-down, shout and holler, cry tears of delight day.

Ok, so maybe I didn't do all those things, but I did have a happy happy joy joy moment getting ready to go to Journalism. When I get a text message on my totally awesome LG Xenon, it doesn't register who the message is from until you open it, just to let you know, (my old junky Motorazr did show who messages were from, which was kind of deflating since the element of surprise would get sucked away). So the message that popped up on the screen at 11:07am simply said "1 New Message" before I opened it. I figured it was my mom telling me something or asking an English question since she was subbing for the 10th grade English class today. Or maybe one of the messages I get from The Weather Channel telling me the day's forecast.... Or a text from someone still in Florida, like Gina or Hannah or Katie B.

Uhhh, noooo..... none of the above.

It was from my very favorite person on the face of whole entire earth.

Yeah, and we all know who that is..... that would be the one-and-only Brandon.

See, that's just living proof that God is all around us and He listens to us when we pray, AND that the Holy Spirit lives in all of us and tells us what to do and when to do it.

And perhaps it's also proof that when you least expect something, it happens.

Because, I pray every night for something small and unexpected, for a miracle, for an answer.... I know God listens to me. He gave me something to smile about this morning. He let me know that one of my most cherished friends still thinks about me and still loves me.

Hallelujah!!!

Much love.

Well well well well....

....Well.

Ahem.

Not much to say here... not much going on. Just still breathing, still waking up everyday, I guess is the greatest thing I'm doing. Oh yeah, and praying, but that goes without saying.

I hate JCJC. I'm reiterating that once again. Just for clarification. Just to make things uber crystal clear. Sparkling uber crystal clear.

Ok, moving on from that....

23 days left. Three weeks, two days. Until I can officially submit the BYU Idaho application for the spring.Needless to say, I am desperate for that day to come. I can't stand the wait much longer. It's excruciating!!!

The only thing about it that isn't quite so uber cool is that Emmilie will be in Ukraine when I get to Idaho (might as well say it- like they're really going to turn me down). But my numero uno friend Brandon will be there- or so he better be. He'll be in a tremendous amount of trouble if he isn't for some strange reason (you know I'm kidding, Brandon). He's a ginormous chunk of why I'm going out there. Him, Em, and being surrounded by other Mormons and getting a solid Gospel education. Paradise, if you ask me. All idyllically set in Idaho.

Yay!!!! My parents should thrilled to be shelling out the money for this one. Better than shelling out the $20K plus for USM every year. I don't really think they want that any more than I do.

Enough rambling.....

Much love.

I Was Just Sitting Here Thinking.....

......About how great it will be when I finally have a life again. I haven't had a true life in over five months. The final shred of a semi-normal life vanished last month, and here I sit, languishing away in Mississippi, reminiscing about the way things used to be with anyone who will listen. That is mainly my mother, and I can only do that when my crazy brother is being quiet, my father is off doing something, and my insufferable sister is as far away as humanly possible. I thought at first talking about the memories would make it easier for me to accept the fact that those days are gone, but it hasn't. I don't think anything will ever make me accept that fact.

April seems like a million years away. Even January, a hopeful month for me because things might change even sooner than I have planned, seems too far away to imagine. Even the pivotal date of October 15, in a mere 3 weeks, seems like another lifetime from now.

All I have left is faith, hope, and love....

Faith in God, faith that He will answer the prayer I have spoken every day and every night since 2:25pm on April 15, 2009. Faith that everything will be all right, that my patience will make everything worthwhile in the end.

Hope that this time next year, I'll look back and laugh over all the tears I cried, laugh about those tears with the person who I shed them for and who I shed them over. Hope that I can wake up and see that my pillow is free from tears, free from the streaks of mascara that rub off on the fabric when I cry.

Love for those around me who are helping me achieve this dream, this goal, this reality. Love for the one person that saved me, that opened my eyes to so many things.... faith and hope that my love for him will never die, no matter what happens.

That's all for now. My internet is finicky tonight, so best I post this while my connection is strong.

Much love.

In Other News...

....I start working tomorrow. Thankfully!! Now I shall have money to buy gas and pay on the car.

Going to Hattiesburg on Saturday to buy business attire.... AKA work clothes which will then be promoted to BYUI clothes.

I can't believe I just ate an entire footlong tuna Subway and a snack sized bag of chips.... Hmmm, I must have been hungry.

I just..... Sigh. Yeah. The usual.

Much love.

Just a Few Things...

....I must say. Ahem...

I hate my community college with a passion. Ok, that down.

I need to write that music essay as in right now or Ms. Newell is not going to like me anymore.

Creative writing is the only class here that is holding my attention thus far, seeing as I love to write and read and all that jazz.

I was reading my Gospel Principles book this morning I brought home from Florida and I am prouder and prouder every day to be LDS. Hmmm, could be a bumper sticker... though around here my car would likely get keyed if, plastered to the lovely behind of my 2002 Saturn L200, was a sticker that said "Proud to be LDS!" Oh well....

I got a job offer from SCMRC earlier. In HR doing filing and scanning. Woohoo!!

I hate texting my dad because he NEVER texts back. As in.... NEVER!!

I am uber hungry but am too lazy to walk down to the sub shop and grab something. I can wait three hours till dinner time, I just know it.

And on my final note....

.....I miss Emmilie.

I miss Aaron.

I miss Katie.

And I extremely and totally and completely miss Brandon. Sorry Em, Aaron, and Katie... but I think you guys know I miss Brandon the most.

Much love.

So As I Sit Here...

....I realize a better use of my time today would not have been sleeping from 1pm til 6pm. But hey, it was dark and rainy, I was feeling a little blahhhh, this isn't a good date for me anyways, seeing as it's been five months......

Question of the millenium- IS IT APRIL 2010 YET???

Ok, nope, it isn't.... carry on.

So I have to go on SCRMC's website and fill out more job applications..... write the essay for Ms. Newell..... do Dr. Townsend's creative writing homework..... write the essay for Ms. Griffin's class on my political beliefs.... and oh, yeah, start getting my application ready for WDW in January. And one more month till I apply for BYU Idaho!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe there is light at the end of this loooooong tunnel. I think I can see it now. Very very faint..... but still there.

Much love.